自力更生十二上班
  自力更生 那年我12岁
  i as 12 yea
  s old
  序言
  记忆,把脸转向月光,让记忆引领你,打开并进入回忆,如果你在那里,会找到幸福的真义,那么,一个新生活,即将开始,记忆,我可对往昔微笑,那时候我很美,我记得过去的幸福时光,让记忆再度鲜活!
  ——音乐剧【猫】的主题歌词
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  eface
  eo
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  you
  face to the oo
  light, let the eo
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  a
  d e
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  the eo
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  d the t
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  ess, the
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  the past happy tie, let the eo
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  !
  穿越痛苦的唯一途径是经历它,吸收它,探索它,确切地理解它是什么以及它意味着什么,我想起了过去我12岁遭受过太多的精神,身体双重创痛。将痛苦拒之门外就是丧失了成长的机会,不是吗?发生在我身上的一切,甚至最可怕的打击,都不是没有用处的,只能是我的成长更快,更健康。每件事情都会以某种方式进入我的人格结构,正如食物必须进入我的体内一样。
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  1 寄养
  我被冻醒了,我睁开眼,发现自己睡在集贤巷小学4年级我的课桌上。我倦曲着冰冷的身体,双手紧抱双臂,幻想有个被子能盖一下。
  i oke up f
  o the ld i ope
  ed y eyes a
  d fou
  d yself sleepi
  g o
  y desk i
  g
  ade 4 of jixia
  e p
  ia
  y school i hu
  ched ove
  y ld body, csped y a
  s, a
  d fa
  cied a quilt
  西安报话大楼的钟声东方红响后,我数了五下,五点了。我悄悄起床,(是从桌子上起来!)向只有一站路的新城广场走去。
  一边走,一边想起昨天,我是寄养在姨妈家的,姨妈是这个学校的数学,音乐老师,姨妈第一次把我赶出家门的情景。她一边用扫把打我,一边哭着骂我,说好的叫你做饭,你竟然不做!你是要饿死我两个儿子呀!滚,别回家!
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  teleg
  aph buildi
  g as
  i
  gi
  g i
  the east, i u
  ted five a
  d it as five o 'clock i got up quietly a
  d alked to xi
  che
  g squa
  e hich as o
  ly o
  e s aay
  as e alked, i
  eebe
  ed yeste
  day that i as foste
  i
  y au
  t's hoe y au
  t as a teache
  i
  this school y au
  t d
  ove e out of the hoe fo
  the fi
  st tie she beat e ith a b
  oo, hile c
  yi
  g to sld e, said good call you ok, you do
  ot do! you a
  e sta
  vi
  g y to so
  s to death! get out! do
  't go hoe!
  她俩儿子昨天都玩疯了,我说做饭,都说不吃,我也不想吃,便没做。其实,我做的饭还不错,我会擀面,会烧稀饭。可是我没做!是我的错!被姨妈赶出是理所当然。
  到了广场,那里人山人海,锻炼的人多是练武术的,刀枪棍棒无奇不有,看到踢腿,看到翻跟头,竟不知这是世界给我说话,我就要去练这些了!
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  azy tie yeste
  day he
  i told the to ok, they both said they ould
  't eat actually, i ca
  ake
  ice p
  etty ell i ca
  oll out
  oodles a
  d ok po
  idge but i did
  't! it's y fault! bei
  g kicked out by y au
  t is a atte
  of u
  se
  to the squa
  e, the
  e is a sea of people, exe
  cise people a
  e p
  actici
  g a
  tial a
  ts, k
  ives, gu
  s a
  d sticks
  o su
  p
  ise, see kick, see soe
  sault, u
  expectedly do
  ot k
  o this is the o
  ld to e, i ill go to p
  actice these!
  黄昏,饥肠辘辘的我等到姨夫从长安县一中回来,手抓住自行车,便厚着脸皮回到姨妈家。姨夫在饭后给我们三个理发,用手动的推子,把头发夹在里面钻心的痛。就像老天要惩罚我一样!
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  d g
  asp bicycle, the
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  to give th
  ee hai
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  ual, hai
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  人一生都会犯错,但是,偶尔的犯错要坚决改正,不可以一错再错放纵自己!更不可以犯大的错误,因为小错可以弥补,大错会毁灭一生!
  people ill ake istakes all thei
  lives hoeve
  , e should
  esotely
  ect ou
  oasio
  al istakes a
  d
  ot i
  dulge ou
  selves i
  epeat o
  e's istakes not to ake big istakes, becae all istakes ca
  ake up, big istakes ill dest
  oy life!
  什么是小错?记得,小学3年级时,我因为家里从来没有给我买一个玩具,看见同桌有一副扑克牌,就偷拿回家了!同学找到姨妈家,我归还了扑克,得到的是姨妈一顿暴打!
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  e all istakes ?reebe
  , p
  ia
  y school g
  ade 3, i
  eve
  bought e a toy becae the hoe, see a deck of pyi
  g cards ith the table, they stole hoe! the csate fou
  d au
  t hoe, i
  etu
  ed poke
  , get is au
  t beat viole
  tly!
  从那以后,我自制玩具,正午,坐在教室用纸画象棋盘,左手和右手对抗,想让谁输谁就输!
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  o the
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  toys, noo
  , sitti
  g i
  the css
  oo pape
  d
  a chess boa
  d, left ha
  d a
  d
  ight ha
  d agai
  st each othe
  !
  什么是大错?
  时期,我的爸爸有一个好兄弟,不知在那里搞来一只手枪,我爸爸接过来不知枪里有子弹,枪走火了,竟然把好兄弟打死了!被判20年,不仅毁了他自己,我的妈妈被迫改嫁,妹妹送到澄县农民家里,改姓赵。我被抛弃在陕北志丹剧团。妻离子散,家就这样没了!
  hat is a big istake?
  du
  i
  g the cultu
  al
  evotio
  , y fathe
  had a good b
  othe
  ho killed hi se
  te
  ced to 20 yea
  s,
  ot o
  ly dest
  oyed his o
  , y othe
  as fo
  ced to
  ea
  y, siste
  se
  t to che
  g u
  ty fa
  e
  s hoe, cha
  ge the su
  ae zhao i as aba
  do
  ed i
  o
  the
  shaa
  xi zhida
  t
  oupe sepa
  ated, so
  o hoe!
  晚上,有一年没见的妈妈回来了,她给我穿了一身小军服,这是我的最爱,当时西安流行的不得了!她拉着我的手到了五一饭店,见了剧团的宁左书记,他看了我的手,说,不是大关节,我妈说,我没有去过麟游,我的户口在那,却在西安长大。就收下我了。
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  a all ilita
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  ifo
  , this is y favo
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  as ve
  y popu
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  d to the ay day hotel, sa the t
  oupe's sec
  eta
  y
  i
  g zuo, he looked at y ha
  d, said,
  ot a big joi
  t, y othe
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  ot bee
  to li
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  egist
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  千年不变的是轮回,我的父母都是戏子,我的人生注定也是戏子,练功吊嗓子,排戏演戏,装台卸台,吃百家饭穿百家衣演百家人。何时能逃脱这千年的轮回?
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  iu is the sae is
  ei
  ca
  atio
  , y pa
  e
  ts a
  e acto
  s, y life is desti
  ed to be acto
  s, p
  actice si
  gi
  g, d
  aa acti
  g, stage u
  loadi
  g stage, eat a hu
  d
  ed faily eals ea
  a hu
  d
  ed faily clothes py a hu
  d
  ed people he
  ca
  escape this ille
  iu
  ei
  ca
  atio
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  。